Okay, so I had a trial run of some new arias on Sunday night. Two of my friends and I give a couple of these little recitals a year to get our new pieces on their feet, and brush up old ones.
My rehearsal for said little recital was Saturday-- it did not go well. I felt like a true disaster after it was over-- my voice was tired and I was exhausted. In short, I was totally freaked out about the performance. To top it all off, the next morning for church, I had a new seven page anthem that I'd never sung before, and I always fund that vocally and mentally taxing. Its almost like they plan it this way! Although they are kind people and I'm sure they didn't.
Saturday night of course I couldn't DO anything to take my mind off it. I was supposed to be resting. It would have been inadvisable to drink a lot, although I did think about it. I needed a project, so I started going through the cookbooks. You know, it occurs to me that the weight loss thing would go quicker and easier if I started a needlework project instead, or if I had the patience to just read the whole night, but I was antsy, and sitting with a quiet, calorie-free project wasn't going to be an option.
So I made caramel.
Brothers and sisters, you have not felt the wrath of God until you look with wide eyes into a bowl of roiling, boiling hot sugar and butter, and then try to pour it into a pan all the while fearing that if you slip, you will without a doubt melt your entire hand off. That is real fear. Singing Violetta for an audience of critical travel-weary amateur musician old people? Not even close.
But once it was in the pan, oh, the beauty. I sprinkled sea-salt on top and let it set. Then I read a couple chapters of Diana Vreeland. Then I came back and carefully cut it into squares and twisted it into wax paper. Oh my I was so proud. It was the most beautiful little pile of rustically wrapped caramels I have 'ere seen. Looking at that all my worries faded away, and I slept well that night, knowing that whatever the outcome of the try-out recital, I had my caramel career to fall back on.